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Day 26: It’s Not You

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…for the Holy Spirit will teach you in that very hour what you ought to say. Luke 12:12

Paul Blart (aka Kevin James), steps into his glory as the substitute keynote speaker in Mall Cop 2. This is his defining moment. He has his chance to fuel a small crowd of mall security officers during their annual conference, a dream he’s been chasing the entire movie. He talks passionately about the importance of their calling and he closes with this classic line.

“I didn’t choose security. Security. Chose. Me.” Everyone looks around with tears in their eyes and nods in agreement. Connecting them with their sense of purpose, Paul walks off stage.

Have you had those moments of genius? Where you said something or did something, at the perfect moment? Was it you? Or the Spirit at work in you?

As I’ve been writing these blogs I’ve been getting a lot of positive responses. So much so, that I’m considering rolling them into a book. The temptation to take the credit lies in the back of my mind.

“Wow, I’m on to something really powerful here. I can’t believe I had this idea.”

But was it MY idea or an idea that God planted in my mind and I was open to listening and taking action on it?

Yesterday we talked about the voice of fear sounding believable. Telling us we’re not worthy. We’ll never make it. Droning on and on, keeping us frozen and ineffective. But what if there is another side to it? The voice of pride. You see fear and pride are two sides of the same coin.

I’ve been blogging and writing books since 2010. And the responses I’ve received up to this point have been good, but not life-changing. Now, the tides have turned. Emails come in daily. Texts show up on my phone. New friends comment on Facebook. I want to pat myself on the back. But I am aware, that is a trap.

This voice of pride can show up in a million different forms and, just as it’s important not to give into fear, it’s equally as important not to give into pride.

“I’m so smart. I can’t believe I did that!”

“People are noticing me. I’m doing it right.”

Feeling a sense of separateness and specialness. Grandiose thinking. A feeling of being better than. A drive to compete and win. These are all forms of Pride that can take us down in our hour of success.

Pride goes before destruction, and haughtiness before a fall. Proverbs 16:18

The ego wants to take the credit. Edging. God. Out.

The words that are touching a deep place inside of the eternal part of you are not mine. How do I know that? Because they are touching me that way too. I have learned more from these writing sessions than I thought possible. I re-read them and say, “How did I come up with that?!” I didn’t. He did.

All I did was commit to waking up at 5 am and asking God to speak through me. I listen and think. I recall scriptures from my childhood and google them and tie them in with conversations I’ve had with friends or my own life experience. I sit quietly in the darkness with a cup of coffee and type. I am available for His work. That is all I can take credit for. It is not me. It is Him.

I didn’t choose writing. Writing. Chose. Me.

And writing is my gift that serves a greater purpose. Not to elevate me. Not to put me in a spotlight. To point the way back to God. To serve as a small light in the darkness, a compass pointing true north, guiding the reader Home. Back to Love.

What gifts do you have that serve God’s purpose? It doesn’t have to be your job. It can be a volunteer commitment. It can be a hobby you share with others. It can be an idea that changes the world. What are you naturally good at that others have complimented you on in the past? That is a clue.

When you commit to waking up early, or staying up late or taking a few small steps towards using your gift, if you’re in the right place, you’ll start to get a response.

You’ll feel like you’ve stepped into the flow of abundance and grace. The work you do will come easily and the right connections will start to show up in your life.  It will seem impossible to fail.

Then that sneaky voice of pride, that temptation to take the credit, will surface too.  Remember it is not you. It is Him working through you.

Even Jesus said in John 5:30, “I can do nothing on my own.”

As people praise you, and try to latch on to you, this one thought will keep you grounded. It’s not me they love. It’s the way their Spirit feels being seen and pointed back to God. It’s not a human to human interaction. It’s a spirit to spirit connection.

Surrender. Allow God to speak through you. Give credit where credit is due. When you spike the football in the end zone, don’t forget to kneel and point to Him.

Day 26 Lenten Love Prayer:

Forgive me for thinking anything I do is a success because of me. Forgive me to allowing myself to think that the ideas I’ve had are mine. Thank you for giving them to me. Thank you for speaking to me in ways that I can hear and understand. Thank you for the willingness to carry out Your work in the world. Even in the small ways, I do. I am grateful to be a part of your Missions Team. It must have been hard to not allow pride to take over your ministry Jesus. After all, I’m sure people were looking to You as their human Savior, the endpoint to the miracles you so powerfully executed. It would have been easy to use that human power and authority to manipulate people and elevate your own status. Yet you never did that. You walked humbly. You resisted temptation. You always kept a mindful watch on your heart and committed to showing up early in the morning for prayer and reconnection with your source. The Father. May I follow your example. May I always remember that any small or great success I experience in this lifetime is Your work being done through me. All credit is yours. I am here. Willing. Use me. Choose me.

Day 26 Scripture:

Oh, how great are God’s riches and wisdom and knowledge! How impossible it is for us to understand his decisions and his ways! Romans 11:33