Let all that I am wait quietly before God,
for my hope is in him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress where I will not be shaken.
Psalm 62: 5-6
“I think you’re here for you,” says Nancy, a therapist who I brought my daughter to for a brief evaluation. “You may have undiagnosed adult ADD.”
I was going for my daughter…who turns out to be a completely normal teen…and the tables get turned.
Walking out my head is screaming, “Are you kidding me!” This shocker takes a moment to settle in. I text her and thank her for the appointment and that I would follow up on some of the additional items we had agreed upon. Then the moment of truth…
“Were you serious about that comment you made?” I text with humor adding a few laughing emojis.
“I’m just saying it’s something you might want to look at. That’s all.”
Later that night she sends me a quiz and as you’d expect I scored pretty well. I always was a good test taker! Maybe it didn’t serve me so well in this instance. And I had to laugh.
God has a way of breaking through and getting us where we need to be.
I wasn’t there for me. Yet it was me who needed the help. Was I willing to accept it?
Verses like Psalm 62: 5-6 were always a mystery to me. Sitting quietly, waiting for God was not on my TO DO list. I can remember saying, “You can take the couches out of my house and I wouldn’t notice, I don’t ever sit on them.” And that is practically the truth.
This is why I can run circles around most people. Why I can publish a book, blog everyday, run a sales team for a nutrition company, record videos, be home (mostly) with my three girls, make dinners and keep the house running.
It’s also why I sometimes can’t focus my brain to hear what you’re saying, or I forget simple things or get bored easily. It’s also why sobriety is so key for me today and why I previously chose that path to quiet my mind all those years. It all makes more sense now.
So what is the point to all of this? I’m not sure. I lost my train of thought. KIDDING!
God makes us all different. Some people like to sit quietly. Some people thrive on quiet. Some people need quiet to function. And that is not me.
I also think that is why this daily writing has been so good for me. It forces me to think in a straight line. It forces me to sit quietly on the couch and listen to what God wants me to share and then process it in the best way I can…and share it with you.
This gift of blogging has given me a reason to get up early, before the rest of the house gets going, and find my slice of quiet before my brain takes over and throws me into motion the rest of the day.
Maybe that is the point. You have to know yourself and find healthy strategies to help you cope with your way of being. Stop wishing you were someone else. I can’t be a quiet person. I don’t want to be. I have to accept who I am and improve my strengths rather than try to eliminate my weaknesses.
Self-awareness and self-honesty, that is what is the key. You don’t know what you don’t know. Until you do. Then you have a choice. Accept the new information, process it and move forward into the light, or reject the information, stay stuck and continue to live in the darkness.
Have I chosen medication? You’re probably wondering. No. We decided that I am doing just fine managing it myself. I thrive on busy. I am uber productive. And Nancy said I probably wouldn’t like the effects of it slowing me down. And I am sure that is the truth.
Am I against medication? Absolutely not. If this describes you and you feel out of control and want to find a way to slow down a bit and feel more focused I suggest you talk with a professional and have them help you figure out what is best for you.
Will nutrition help? Absolutely. That is one thing I am also very passionate about and is why I work very closely with a nutrition company. So if your diet could be better (and that’s probably everyone) I would start here.
I want to say Yes. Yes to anything that will help me be a better me. I hope you do to.
It’s not always easy to see where we need to grow so when someone offers you a suggestion to ‘take a look’ be open to hearing them. Resist the temptation to be offended.
You’ll be the better for it.
Now my quiet time is over and it’s time to get going! Lots of love and have a beautiful day.
Don’t forget to CLICK HERE to check out our Courage to Be Yourself Class that is starting Thursday. We will be meeting up online for 6 weeks and it will be a great way to learn more about yourself and create strategies to maximize your gifts and talents you may have silenced.