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Silence the Devil of Doubt

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The master was full of praise. ‘Well done, my good and faithful servant. You have been faithful in handling this small amount, so now I will give you many more responsibilities. Let’s celebrate together!
Matthew 25:21

Yesterday I finished recording the audiobook for The Ultimate Love Affair. I made a decision that morning that IT WAS HAPPENING. So I cancelled a few appointments, put my phone in airplane mode and shut myself in my office.  For hours.

I knew it was possible with some focused effort and undistracted time, so I pressed through the doubts and the fears that this book (and me) are not good enough.

At one point, when I felt like quitting and was so wrapped up in my mind of doubt, I sent a quick text to a friend for a reality check, “Is it the devil who is sitting on my shoulder telling me this whole project is stupid and repetitive?”

Their reply, “You’re on the right track. Resistance comes when you’re doing something great.”

Relief came. I continued. I even decided to do a Facebook Live while recording Day 30 just to give you the experience of what it’s like and give you the encouragement to do it, if it is something God has put on your heart, because it really is not too hard (minus fighting off the devil of doubt!).

Shortly afterwards, I received an encouraging FB message from someone I barely know who had watched the broadcast.

I took a quick screenshot and sent it over to my friend who said, “Seeeee!!!!”

Yes. I see. When you are walking in faith, living life on the edge of creativity and trying to pursue God’s calling, you have to be willing to do it despite the devil sitting on your shoulder, whispering in your ear, reminding you that you’re not good enough.

That little, critical, condescending voice will linger and try to take you out. Don’t believe it!

You’re enough! You’re doing good work. And most importantly when you have done your work to the best of your ability, celebrate. And that is what I did.

I turned on the hot tub and decided to officially give myself a break. Kind of. I sat out back and listened to the first of the engineered audio files which my audio guy had delivered. It was thrilling, to be honest. How could one little at-home mom with an idea do this?

I have no idea. It’s not me. It’s God. I swear to you. I did not set out to make this book at all. I simply chose to blog for 40 days based on a simple idea that I wanted to uncover God’s love for me. So I did it. Faithfully. And as I walked that road, more was revealed.

And here I am. Weeks away from launching The Ultimate Love Affair.

So what I want to say to you today is, YOU ARE GREAT! You have greatness in you that is waiting to be released. You may be just one person. You may be unskilled or feel unprepared, but God doesn’t need a “Professional Christian” to carry out His work.

If He did I suspect He’d be waiting a long time. Because God knows all of us have our demons. All of us have our skeletons and our secrets and our sins that try to prove to us that we are unworthy of carrying out His work in the world. Don’t believe it.

He just needs someone who is willing to learn, open to listening and won’t quit when the devil of doubt and discouragement is shouting louder than His voice.

You are needed. You are necessary. You are a valuable part of God’s plan and YOU can make a difference. Do the work you’ve been called to do with reckless abandon. Silence that inner critic and let God pick up the tab.

I guarantee when it is finished, regardless of the outcomes, you’ll hear this voice speaking directly to you, “Well done my good and faithful servant. Let’s go celebrate together!”